I am working the graveyard shift this weekend but I made a thanksgiving dinner with my kids and partner on Thursday. It was amazing.
I realize that I have so much to be thankful for, some may not know this but I haven’t felt much like celebrating or getting together with people and I actually haven’t had a proper thanksgiving dinner in years since the divorce, I purposely worked almost every thanksgiving to avoid having to make a traditional dinner.
I did that for many little reasons but the main reason was that I didn’t feel like celebrating and thanksgiving was a triggering holiday for me since I once had invited someone to my first one ever making a turkey dinner many years ago and everything went wrong that day with us having dinner late and not being able to eat the turkey until two hours after dinner because the bird was so big it took a long time to cook through. It was a disaster! Lol
Personally I feel I let others intervene in my cooking and it’s why my dinner turned out that way, I had my plan and I let it be adjusted because others thought they knew better and had more experience then me so my dinner didn’t work out as I had planned.
I want to take this story as a reminder to trust yourself and to not let others intervene in your plans, you are the driver of your own vehicle. It’s your life, your choices and your own ways. Be you, be in your power, stand your ground and express authentically.
Everything else is playing games and feeding into other peoples believes and realities. You are doing everyone including yourself a disservice not being you. Do not pacify and be authentic.
Over the last few years I learned to reconnect with my true authentic self which is why I felt inclined to write a chapter in “Living Your Truth” anthology which will come out soon this fall. In my marriage I felt like I had lost connection to my real self, I feel people often loose themselves in marriages during the years, we work, build lives, have kids and then realize suddenly we cannot connect to our inner spaces anymore and when we lost this connection to our true selves and god/spirit, we also have lost the ability to connect with others authentically, meaning our marriages and relationships suffer, this often goes both ways and leads to miscommunications and misunderstandings. We have disconnected from our hearts.
When we get the courage to allow ourselves to go find ourselves again, we often have to disconnect from what has been manipulating us so we can be alone with our thoughts.
This often leads to separations and seclusion’s, this is often a necessary process and will assist your growth and builds inner strength. Not taking regular times away for self care leads to one needing a long time off and to themselves so I encourage others to practice regular selfcare so you won’t have to become a hermit. It is really so important you take care of yourself and fill up your own cup, nobody else can or will do that for you. If you don’t, you will run yourself down and into a burn out one day. Burn outs sneak up on people and you won’t know what hit you suddenly. I’ve seen it and experienced it many times. If you are someone who experiences burn out I suggest to look at yourself, your life and stress factors, observe yourself and your thoughts, believes and attitudes, what programming is running you and how did you acquire that behaviour? Then make appropriate changes so you can get your life working for you and you don’t have to feel like a victim of circumstances.
You are the master of you and your life, nobody else, so take charge of you.
I am thankful for being able to connect with myself and my inner worlds, it has taught me so much and I am still continuously learning from myself. It has opened the doors to places I had forgotten about, memories have resurfaced which I had not touched in decades, I got to explore and understand myself deeply. I have built depth which helped to create meaning for my life and my experiences. I have reconnected with my greater self, spirit and have created a deep relationship with my inner child and parts of myself which I had rejected out of humility, shame and fear.
I have become whole.
By accepting all parts of us, we reinstate our true personal power and we can experience miracles and magic the way we were meant to experience it.
That is what I am thankful for, no matter how difficult my ego made my path to be, I was able to take the path through choice and intent. I trusted and showed faith; when you leap into the unknown, you show you trust as you relinquish your fears and the doors will simply open.
You can ask for confirmation for being on the right path as many times as you need to, you will get it over and over again.
That is gods or spirits unconditional love for you. You can’t do anything wrong, let go of all fears and trust in yourself and god within your heart.
For the first time in my life, and I’m almost 40 years old, I feel comfortable being myself and expressing from my true authentic heart and being, and that my friends is priceless.
Love and Light on your journey of Life and again I wish you a happy thanks giving weekend
Reiki Master, Angelic Medium, Author