A few years back I was forced into surrendering through an illness, I couldn’t move and allowed myself to go deep to see the answers to all my suffering. What I was shown in my memory was profound and put me on a journey of self rediscovery. At some point I began to receive very clear answers to my questions for example after I asked how I could heal myself from the confusion I suffered; I had a vision of a Gingko leaf which eventually led me to take it as a supplement. It was one of the guidance points I received from the angels and my I am presence or god. Ask and observe how your answers appear in your reality. I’ve used this guidance many times over and everytime I was incredibly surprised at the accuracy of the visions, many times giving me a glimpse of future unfoldments. Your inner guidance is key to live a life of passion and purpose. All there is to know to help you is already there on a higher consciousness level. It’s only a matter of surrendering the ego and little me to allow it to come into our awareness.
Sabrina S Goeldlin - Usui Reiki Master & Angelic Medium
After my partner made a beautiful raw vegan dinner, I sat by the Christmas tree and suddenly remembered a moment few years ago sitting here by myself.
And how I couldn’t relax because I felt I had to move and do things to make sure I had enough money to support myself.
In that moment I had a message come in that I didn’t need to do anything at all, but my mind interfered saying “but” you have bills to pay.
This night, I realized the amazing things I have experienced and learned since then and how I am currently in a great place.
Eating amazing food and having great conversations with my partner; I realized how negative thinking creates a reality that causes anxiety and destroys the life we want to build.
Surrendering and accepting the moment and what we have built, being grateful for what we have and are able to do and experience. That is a foundation we can build more upon.
A course I am taking right now, is showing me to increase my abundance container from where I am at right now and not run around looking for ways to increase my abundance but to let it come to me, the bigger the container the bigger the abundance; expanding the container and allowing it to fill. Abundance is a state of being, that takes many shapes and forms.
“I am seeing a large cauldron with outwards beveled edges, it holds the whole world in it. I see myself first at the edge sitting on the rim. Then I see a rose growing, unfolding and expanding its petals in the middle of the cauldron. Suddenly, I am the rose, and the cauldron expands to hold the universe.”
I see that the more abundant I am, the more I can show up for others and the more can I contribute to making our world a better place.
To be abundant, one needs to be like the rose emitting the beautiful scent after unfolding and expanding its petals. The rose smells even before the petals are open which means that you don’t need to wait for conditions to be perfect to do the things you are passionate about, you can do it anytime.
The rose is also a symbol of frequencies; scents and frequencies like sound and vibrations have huge power and effects on us, they are subtle but powerful beyond ones comprehension.
Another realization came tonight and that’s the one of conflict. Conflict is a huge abundance block. Releasing and letting go of anything that creates inner or outer conflict is essential in creating the life you love.
For example, the conflict created by trying to get something you feel entitled to. Or the conflict created by not speaking your truth or explaining to someone what you need. This creates both inner and outer conflicts. It clutters your mind with worries and anxiety, anger and upset. And it will expand into your environment by creating conflict with people, worsening relationships instead of fostering them.
Letting go and surrendering can feel like “giving in” or “giving up” or “loosing out” to the ego or little me and so it may need some time for one to release this opposition that causes inner conflict.
You are not “loosing”, that’s a false perception. You are actually gaining. You are gaining inner peace, confidence and trust in oneself and the infinite. When you clear your slates, and all is resolved, the storm calmed and the sea is peaceful; you can finally get ready to build something new, conditioning keeps one in place, stuck and suffocating.
If you believe that you can only do something, go somewhere or receive “if” or “when” a certain situation comes to pass, you create time and delay the very thing you’d like to happen. In some cases, the delay helps to receive perceptions one otherwise would have missed out on but on the other hand, it delays your life. This points towards the importance of daily self work to stop putting your best life on hold.
Letting go of the conditioned self allows for new inspirations of the heart to move into clear view. Now it is visible, palpable and exciting.
The voice is a powerful manifestation tool, learning how to master it is incredibly important. Your reality changes depending on how it is applied.
Realizing how thoughts and speech affects us, others and our situations.
Also realizing the importance of intent. In the field of intent we can create magic.
What we intent in the field of possibilities will become real and visible in the physical realities. This is true white magic, aligning oneself with the infinite possibilities and surrendering to our higher selves guidance.
We already created this, little me just can’t remember that.
Remember who you really are and allow that knowledge to settle deeply into your solar plexus;
I am my “I am presence”; I am abundance.
Sabrina S Goeldlin - Usui Reiki Master & Angelic Medium
Learned something today during a self work session, food for thought;
Shame, guilt, hate and love
Shame is a social construct; we feel shame when we feel we crossed someone else’s standards, but guilt is a personal construct; it is about our own standards we somehow crossed or neglected.
As long as we are in a state of either guilt or shame we can’t heal ourselves nor move forward, it means we have to pause and examine it and resolve it to move ahead.
Ask yourself why you feel like this?
Guilt comes from believing you didn’t do right by your own standards not that you didn’t do right by someone else’s. It’s a belief you carry and it is not true. It’s your own standards not that of others, even if it’s your own kids.
Shame is a result of social conditioning. What we are taught and believe what is accepted or not in society becomes a construct we need to abide to or we feel shame over crossing that societal construct, again; it’s social conditioning and often outdated inherited beliefs and programming.
Also, hate is not the opposite of love, indifference is the opposite of love.
Hate still keeps one preoccupied with the object the hate is directed to and so hate is very similar to love.
Love to hate or hate to love or love/hate relationship ;-) lol
And this is why forgiving, accepting and letting go of the past is an important end product. It serves YOU and not the one you forgive. Because you release the emotions that keep you stuck and recycled. That’s your freedom, not a freedom you give to others. They have their own emotions to release and deal with, trust that.
“All suffering has an end, when we arrive there, a gate opens to higher realms. From this place we get a better view and deeper understanding of what we had been experiencing, we clearly see how we can resolve it and clear away the beliefs and programming we were subjected to. It is not possible to clearly see this from the lower perspectives and inside the dream stages, illusion beguiles us into believing we are going towards a certain outcome but on our journey as we rise higher we realize that it is much greater than that.”
Sabrina S Goeldlin
🌟🌟🌟 Today’s reading is very interesting; see the second picture. It shows us in a place of abundance, maybe we don’t recognize it or maybe we just need to be reminded of it but we are taken care off and self nurturing may be key right now. Remember to show your gratitude. This Card is reminding us to eat our greens or maybe take that juice cleanse seriously now. An angel is on its way to bring you abundance which you have asked for, be open to receive no matter how it appears into your reality. It may not be exactly as expected but take it and be grateful for it. 🎁 moving forward you may need to work on some fears of taking that step towards a new journey. Stepping into the unknown often brings fear of falling into a bottomless pit but remember; you got wings, you may also soar high. You will never know if you don’t take a bit of a risk. You’ve got nothing to loose really, try it and see where it leads you to, the six of wands reminding you that you are supported, and you have already accomplished so much so it’s okay to be put on a pedestal and celebrate some of those achievements. Yes it may feel like you are exposing yourself but you are also protected, and praised and loved. Balance is key in moving forward, get your ducks in order, focus on some work that needs to be done so you can worry less and take focused action. This Card is about taking action and not staying idle anymore. 🦋moving beyond, you will be in a place from where you may have to stand your ground a bit and claim your authority or your position, not everyone will agree with you and how you are doing things but that’s okay. You cannot please everyone, it’s not a popularity contest, you have a mission. You know who you are, you are well equipped and you can do it. Maybe try to include some people in your endeavours, see other people’s qualities and include that in your work. Everyone has something to contribute. 🦋🦋🦋 @ Hillsburgh, Ontario
(Angel Tarot Deck by Jody Bogonski Barbessi and Karen Bogonski)
I am working the graveyard shift this weekend but I made a thanksgiving dinner with my kids and partner on Thursday. It was amazing.
I realize that I have so much to be thankful for, some may not know this but I haven’t felt much like celebrating or getting together with people and I actually haven’t had a proper thanksgiving dinner in years since the divorce, I purposely worked almost every thanksgiving to avoid having to make a traditional dinner.
I did that for many little reasons but the main reason was that I didn’t feel like celebrating and thanksgiving was a triggering holiday for me since I once had invited someone to my first one ever making a turkey dinner many years ago and everything went wrong that day with us having dinner late and not being able to eat the turkey until two hours after dinner because the bird was so big it took a long time to cook through. It was a disaster! Lol
Personally I feel I let others intervene in my cooking and it’s why my dinner turned out that way, I had my plan and I let it be adjusted because others thought they knew better and had more experience then me so my dinner didn’t work out as I had planned.
I want to take this story as a reminder to trust yourself and to not let others intervene in your plans, you are the driver of your own vehicle. It’s your life, your choices and your own ways. Be you, be in your power, stand your ground and express authentically.
Everything else is playing games and feeding into other peoples believes and realities. You are doing everyone including yourself a disservice not being you. Do not pacify and be authentic.
Over the last few years I learned to reconnect with my true authentic self which is why I felt inclined to write a chapter in “Living Your Truth” anthology which will come out soon this fall. In my marriage I felt like I had lost connection to my real self, I feel people often loose themselves in marriages during the years, we work, build lives, have kids and then realize suddenly we cannot connect to our inner spaces anymore and when we lost this connection to our true selves and god/spirit, we also have lost the ability to connect with others authentically, meaning our marriages and relationships suffer, this often goes both ways and leads to miscommunications and misunderstandings. We have disconnected from our hearts.
When we get the courage to allow ourselves to go find ourselves again, we often have to disconnect from what has been manipulating us so we can be alone with our thoughts.
This often leads to separations and seclusion’s, this is often a necessary process and will assist your growth and builds inner strength. Not taking regular times away for self care leads to one needing a long time off and to themselves so I encourage others to practice regular selfcare so you won’t have to become a hermit. It is really so important you take care of yourself and fill up your own cup, nobody else can or will do that for you. If you don’t, you will run yourself down and into a burn out one day. Burn outs sneak up on people and you won’t know what hit you suddenly. I’ve seen it and experienced it many times. If you are someone who experiences burn out I suggest to look at yourself, your life and stress factors, observe yourself and your thoughts, believes and attitudes, what programming is running you and how did you acquire that behaviour? Then make appropriate changes so you can get your life working for you and you don’t have to feel like a victim of circumstances.
You are the master of you and your life, nobody else, so take charge of you.
I am thankful for being able to connect with myself and my inner worlds, it has taught me so much and I am still continuously learning from myself. It has opened the doors to places I had forgotten about, memories have resurfaced which I had not touched in decades, I got to explore and understand myself deeply. I have built depth which helped to create meaning for my life and my experiences. I have reconnected with my greater self, spirit and have created a deep relationship with my inner child and parts of myself which I had rejected out of humility, shame and fear.
I have become whole.
By accepting all parts of us, we reinstate our true personal power and we can experience miracles and magic the way we were meant to experience it.
That is what I am thankful for, no matter how difficult my ego made my path to be, I was able to take the path through choice and intent. I trusted and showed faith; when you leap into the unknown, you show you trust as you relinquish your fears and the doors will simply open.
You can ask for confirmation for being on the right path as many times as you need to, you will get it over and over again.
That is gods or spirits unconditional love for you. You can’t do anything wrong, let go of all fears and trust in yourself and god within your heart.
For the first time in my life, and I’m almost 40 years old, I feel comfortable being myself and expressing from my true authentic heart and being, and that my friends is priceless.
Love and Light on your journey of Life and again I wish you a happy thanks giving weekend
Reiki Master, Angelic Medium, Author
I had been struggling with two sides of mine, one is a heart centred soul self and the other is a over protective ego self. My ego self has done a great job protecting me during very difficult times as a young child and adult. It has served me by keeping me away from my own truth which was very difficult to accept. It feels like having the proverbial devil on one side and the angel on the other side of my head sitting on my shoulders. One tells me "do this" the other tells me to "slow down and give it more thought". My whole life I had felt like my personality was split in half, I had two personalities, two selves, two ways of thinking and two answers to every question; this had been very confusing to me during my life. It lead to me not being able to make decisions, my partners had laughed at me because I couldn't make up my mind about anything, I couldn't choose one and leave the other. Sometimes I would eat three desserts instead of just choosing the one ;-)
I was always worried about making the "wrong" decision. This also stemmed from my childhood, when I had chosen paths that lead me to discovering parts of my truth which ended up causing huge problems. My fear of trusting my intuition or my soul guidance grew as I was being told I was wrong about something I knew I was right about. I was a child, I didn't have the courage to stand up to adults. Even if they were wrong and I was correct. Eventually, I shut down my heart and my soul guidance and began to simply trust my ego who would always protect me and keep me save. It kept me from being "detected". We also call this "living in denial".
I found most people choose to live in denial over a truth. It is because they cannot handle nor explain the truth, if it makes no clear sense then it becomes difficult to explore it or accept it as a possibility. And that is exactly where you should look a little closer. That is where your truth is hiding. In the parts you decided to forget about. For a long time, I had little memories of my childhood and never could participate in talking about the past and things I had experienced. I had shut it out completely. Why? The brain has the ability to shut out experiences you cannot categorize or that which are difficult to comprehend from a lower consciousness level. But once you reach adulthood and you allow your awareness to grow, you will begin to recollect old memories and start to understand your story. It takes a bit of an awakening and raising your consciousness to reach those levels of "remembering" parts of who you are. I was very surprised at what I was rediscovering about myself. Since then it has been an incredible journey. I had some very hard times and felt I may not make it out of it alive, the void is a deep bottomless pit, but once you realize that you won't hit ground ever, you begin to manifest something to help you rise from your fall, first you may extend your jacket to slow the fall a bit, then you may realize you have this balloon in your backpack and you begin to rise a bit again, then you understand that your shoes contain a rocket device and suddenly you zoom up to higher grounds.
It takes time to realize things about yourself and then it takes courage to implement what you have, to help you rise again from the ashes. But once you do, you realize how powerful you are and how much your experiences have taught you. Then you decide to share them with others and you find you connect with people who understand you, then you form relationships and suddenly, your depression, anxiety and self hatred disappears. You have come to learn what it means to love yourself again.
Today I picked three cards from a deck I received from my friend Laurie, its called "the answer is simple". I shuffled it and asked my spirit what is standing in my way from fully expressing myself or to step forward and create the amazing ideas that have been floating in my head for years. What is holding me back?
The answer is simple; its my ego. The very thing I thought was protecting me from the harshness of the world and other people.
The cards told me to stop talking to my ego as it confuses me, but to reconnect with spirit and talk to god, the second card was "open your heart" we often will close our heart to protect ourselves, but when we do that we are not open to self love and also repulse others trying to show us love, affection or even the universe trying to shower us with blessings. With a closed heart, we cannot give nor receive love and blessings. There is no exchange of love, energy or compassion. Transformation happens when we let go of ego and allow our hearts to open again, this may need a bit of courage and showing some vulnerability. The third card that popped out was "clean up your mess". Realize the damage the ego does to you and others. Understand the effects and allow yourself to open up to see the problem, allow yourself to fix the problem. Think about how something you said or did has negatively affected others, how others had to clean up your mess for you. Just because you wanted a tree to be a rabbit, doesn't mean that you had the right to just cut the branches to make it look like a rabbit. Remember to connect with your heart and your spirit in meditation regularly, to calibrate yourself, to learn how to quiet the ego for some time so you can hear clear answers to your questions and receive clear guidance on your path in life, this will help you to make clear and precise decisions that come from your authentic spirit. Ask yourself always; is it true? is it necessary? and is it loving?
With that said, I truly feel that we have always tried to abide to what is commonly accepted and what other people want us to do or say. I find this extremely boring and I also feel that none of that serves the greater good. I have had so many experiences which I have not yet shared with anyone except my partner, out of fear of what anyone would say or think about me. This fear again stems from my childhood but also from my ancestral lines, the fear of being exposed and standing more fully in my truth. But it also is very empowering once you take that step ahead, drop your fears and dare to leap into the unknown.
It is only from here, the unknown, from where greatness can be born.
I hope you enjoyed reading my thoughts, love and light on your journey of Life
Reiki Master, Angelic Medium, Author and MLT
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"The Answer is Simple" Oracle cards by Sonia Choquette
Have you ever created your own affirmations? Do you know what affirmations are? Affirmations are statements of empowerment, we create them and repeat them to ourselves to reprogram our mind, lift our vibes and come home to ourselves. It encourages self sovereignty and a deep understanding of who you are in this vast universe. I began using them during a difficult time when I felt myself slipping away and loosing hope, I realized my thoughts were reinforcing my experiences in life and that I could change that for myself, I was inspired by Sarah Prout who created the manifesting academy and wrote a book about affirmations. I created my own and wrote them on sticky notes, hung them in places I would see them and everytime my eyes caught the note I took my heart and spoke the affirmation to myself, I did this for about a year and found it made a tremendous difference in how I felt, how I viewed myself and the world I live in. I like to share what I do to help inspire others to step back into their power to master their own life. As a survivor of complex childhood trauma, I have had many low moments in my life and survived the sheer incredible. I had become amazing at hiding my pain and only few years ago I began to open up to my truth. I began to look for ways to heal my life, the affirmations are only one of many things I have done for myself. I wrote them out on a beautiful templet, 8 of the exact affirmations I am using and are available for you to download if you are interested, you can go on my website www.theangelhouse.ca (pop up sign up prompt) to get yours or message me with your email to send it to you.
Curious if it actually works?? :-) yes it does, check out some recent pictures below.
Thank you for your support ❤️🦋
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The angels are letting you know that you have reached a place of self sovereignty, new ideas are able to take hold, you have come to a balanced, grounded but open and fluid position which will serve you well, self work assisted you in reaching this higher ground and helped establish yourself, knowing who you are, feeling at peace and empowered. The divine feminine principle is coming through strongly, you are the queen bee, connected to heaven and earth, open to new growth and inspiration. Claiming your heritage fully and unapologetically 🌹🦋 the king of wands is urging you forward to take inspired action, fully aligned with your true self, with purpose and new vigour, allow yourself to create what you feel drawn to do, pay attention to new inspirations hitting you and spreading like a wild fire, make room for new growth to happen, this is a fantastic time for you!🌼🌼🌼 on your way you are reminded that you are not alone, remember your spiritual guidance and allow others to help you, know your limitations and delegate jobs you can’t do onto others who are better equipped so you can focus on the work you love to do! Remember who you are, look up more often, you are only stuck inside your mind, the mind limits us, take off the blindfold and make intelligent decisions on your way. Ask the angels to help you 💖💖💖 # how this works; if you were drawn to this post there is a message here for you, take what resonates and keep in mind the rest. This is based on synchronization and frequency alignment. It works for anyone, no matter what your belief is. Angels are not specific to one religious belief but are non denominational.
Love and Light on your journey of life 🌈❤️💖🌼🦄🦋🍂🍁Sabrina Goeldlin - TheAngelHouse.ca
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Dear lovely people, I am currently stopping all readings and services I offer until the new year. If you are interested to connect you may do so through messenger or email. email@example.com
I’m feeling drawn to go within for a while into seclusion, as much as I can.
The cocoon is calling me once again to prepare me for another transformation.
I’m gonna put my readings and shop on hold to focus the rest of the year on my personal practices and finish loose ends like editing a book and creating the odd blogs when i feel inspired to do so. Also, I want to work a bit on my physical fitness and I find the readings suck up all my free time to do these things.
I see myself pacing the inner petals of the seed of life. Tying up loose ends, putting focus on what I began, finishing it and deepening myself even more so I can bloom more effectively.
I’m gonna finish open orders and requests. If I feel drawn to it, I will do a day of free practice readings to not get completely out of touch at my own convenience, so stay connected to know which days I open for that, those will be only 20 minutes in length and are completely free. I will announce them here and on my Facebook page.
I also want to deepen my energy healing techniques and symbols, practice chi gong and meditation more regularly as I found it absolutely vital to my wellbeing, we (Wissam and I) are considering creating some videos with instructions on how to do these for your own wellbeing. We will post them on YouTube or share them on Facebook when they are ready.
I’ve explored and seen a lot, i have recently received a ton of insight on my childhood, and I am looking for deeper understanding and widen my sovereign all knowing being, I’m now seeing myself in the Center of the seed of life, in meditating pose, collecting my energy and going within my heart.
From there I know.
I still am going to create a Doterra event for the ones who are interested, I have completely transitioned to using their all natural products infused with life supporting essential oils, including their incredible whole food supplements. As it is a part of my practices to live a wholesome life. I found including mother earths gifts for us has changed my attitude and made me understand the importance of wholesomeness. 🌺❤️❤️
Update on Living Your Truth Anthology; we are still awaiting the chapters release date and I will post it here for the ones who are interested in getting a signed copy at the book signing event.
Thank you for your support lovelies 🌹💖
If you have any questions, don’t hesitate to message or leave your questions or inquiries in one of my groups here on Facebook.
Yours truly ❤️
Some very interesting realizations came today.
If you have ever experienced black magic done on you, which likely most of humanity has experienced in one form or another, you may have wondered how you can remove that or heal it, how can you avoid the outcome one not so heart centred psychic predicted for your life?
Anything previously predicted can be changed through lifting vibes and growing your inner depth which allows for increased perception and frequencies.
This in essence lengthens time and puts you on a different path which allows you to avoid the cataclysm from happening. Lengthened time allows you to gain missing perceptions which leads to you taking conscious steps higher and further, passing by the cataclysm that was designed to awaken you once again if you have not done the work yourself.
In essence, you can avoid the sledge hammer on the head by increasing depth and frequencies.
This allows for an easier transition from one dimension to another.
The first few were easy as we could hitch a ride as Mother Earth was ascending.
But after 5D, you can only move higher through resolving karmic repercussions and emotional and mental blocks.
Deep inner work increases your depth and awareness which allows for solid steps into higher realms.
It also makes it easier to go beyond the consciousness of love, the god consciousness.
This will also help resolve anxiety, which triggers human hormones and causes a disconnect from Spirit and higher self, which will also stop you from remembering who you really are.
There are a few methods to resolve anxiety and hormonal caused tensions that disconnect you from your true self.
One of the methods is self work (Light; exploring shadows; increase of depth) as described, another is working with frequencies (healing, opening the heart, colours, reiki, increasing vibes) and a third is working with the incorruptible essences of Mother Earth (nature, essential oils..)
Make continuous choices based on your trueness and not based on programming, believes or opinions of others.
You ARE light and frequency, the power to change resides within you. Remember WHO you are!
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“We are all butterflies. Earth is our chrysalis.”
Today we were outside doing self work when a beautiful large monarch made his circles over our table and around us. It was quite the sight, here is the symbolic meaning there of I found which is very synchronistic at this time.
What is the meaning of the butterfly? This animal totem is primarily associated with symbolism of change and transformation.
Powerful transformation, metamorphosis in your life, personality, Moving through different life cycles,
Renewal, rebirth, Lightness of being, playfulness
Elevation from earthly matters, tuning into emotional or spiritual, The world of the soul, the psyche.
A secondary meaning of the butterfly is about finding joy in life and lightness of being.
The butterfly is one of the most emblematic totem animals symbolizing personal transformation. If you see the butterfly as your totem or spirit animal, pay attention to the areas in your life or personality that are in need of profound change or transformation. Perhaps, this animal totem guides you to be sensitive to your personal cycles of expansion and growth, as well as the beauty of life’s continuous unfolding. An important message carried by the spirit of the butterfly is about the ability to go through important changes with grace and lightness.
The monarch butterfly teaches us that life is short, and that it must be valued. Assuming that we have decades of our lives left (or at the very least, years) is all well and good for things like economic planning, but it is through recognising the fleetingness of human existence that we come to value every day, even those which get us down or which are hard to appreciate.
Monarch butterfly asks you to consciously look at what you have gained that is valuable in each day, and even to write the things that you are grateful for down. If you are in a position where you can think of nothing to be grateful for, monarch butterfly is a guide willing to open your eyes to the beauty and gift of life once more. It is through this that monarch butterfly teaches us how to look for sweetness and light in our lives.
“PAY ATTENTION, read your own messages from Spirit in your surroundings, all is a mirror to you, “you” are the only real BEing in your existence, once you understand and see who you are, the mirrors dissolve. You, the one, are all there is.”
I got them in my backyard here in town. Singing their beautiful summer song.
I wondered about their meaning.
Since they hide for 17 years and then emerge to mate and sing their song only for a few weeks before they die, I see them as a symbol of extreme survival and living with purpose.
Remember how short life can be, make the best out of it, why wait? Why procrastinate the things that truly matter? You only have a minute in this vast eternity of existence, authentically express who you really are, uncover your true self hidden deep within, come out of your sleep stages, awaken, shed your old skin, relinquish what keeps you back and step into your true self to express what comes natural to you.
Interesting part is that a majority of them reemerged in 2013 after their 17 years spent underground. Just like I awoke and began to emerge as my true self, in sync with the return of the magi cicada. See article below.
The magi cicada carries a beautiful message to sing your song of the true self.
Cicada Totem an excerpt from totemwisdom.com;
The Cicada is a symbol of rebirth and longevity. People with this totem are strong communicators and often find rewarding opportunities as the result of patience and persistence. Their callings sometimes come later in life after a period of seclusion.
Cicada teaches communication through music – it’s song is easily recognizable and noticed by others. Cicada also speaks of the ability to “shed one’s skin” and emerge as something new and different in life. Coming out of your shell and expressing yourself authentically are themes of this totem.
Cicada remains underground for much of its life before emerging. When cicada appears to you it speaks of a need to come out from hiding, to break free of what restricts you.
Cicada loses its shell and symbolizes our ability to come out from the shadows and let our inner being break free from oppression. Cicada has a distinctive sound all its own – use cicada’s wisdom to inspire you to share your own voice.
Violet Light Explosions to neutralize and protect from electromagnetic radiation (EMF & 5G)
There has been quite an uproar in the spiritual and naturalists’ communities about the new 5G coming our way, the frequencies will increase and allow for 100 times faster speeds on uploads.
During this time, we had been doing intense self work, when we worked with violet colour which stands for self sovereignty, an inspiration struck me.
I had been using light explosions and colours since childhood, then I forgot about it as I went on living my life and had a family.
After I woke up, I began to do my energy work and created my own ways of light working, the way I remembered doing it as a child and beyond this existence.
Light explosions are simple to do, with that said, to do a proper light explosion, one should be living the properties of the colour and align oneself with the expression of this colour.
When we live the expression of the colours meaning, it becomes easier to create a light explosion, less effort is needed. Violet correlates to self sovereignty and protection. The realisation that one is the source of its surrounding mirrors, as we live within our own sovereignty, the mirrors that were created for us to learn about ourselves, simply seize to exist when we resolve our triggers.
The resolving of triggers has allowed us to recognize the mirrors we were represented with and that mirror instantly looses its significance and its power to trigger us.
A self sovereign being realizes its unrealness and removes each mirror with the blink of an eye, a sovereign understanding of what it was meant to teach the self.
We keep up the health of our Merkabah through living in wholesomeness. Being in oneness and reintegrating the split psyche of the self from original traumas, we create an impermeable field that protects our being from those types of frequencies and other harmful substances, thoughts and emotions. Each colour relates to a specific purpose, they are somewhat common knowledge when you research them or simply ask spirit about each colour meaning and write down what you get after meditating with it.
For example, the ultraviolet light can destroy bacteria, we use it in the laboratory to disinfect surfaces we have used to prepare surgical tissue on or after inoculating plates with cultures and so forth.
The ultraviolet light creates a wavelength and a frequency the bacteria is not compatible with as it interferes with its genes.
The principle with the light explosions is like that, as we align with the frequency of that colour, we create an environment that no longer allows certain invaders into our fields.
Some people have difficulties to understand this, if its not seen in the physical, they reject it. As lightworkers, we understand that the unseen has a wealth of undiscovered treasures to give us, when we are evolved enough and ready to accept them. We open a different type of vision that allows us to read what the light shows us, or what our own spirit wants us to understand. It is how we communicate with the infinite being.
As we align with the colours and live their meaning, we can protect ourselves and our environment.
Just like in reiki as we send healing white light through time, space and realities to a specific place or a situation or a person, it moves there and assists in the greater purpose of healing and allows for changes needed.
As we do this for ourselves and our environment or even our planet, we create a save place for not just humans but all life on earth. No matter what anyone does that which is out of our control. This also reinstates our ability to do something about our situations on earth.
We are not idle powerless beings, as light workers and humans, we can heal and help our planet and the life’s around us, it is so our responsibility as the shepherds of earth, our home and our sacred garden.
“We can use our power to assist earth and its inhabitants. We use our power for healing. Watch your power dwindle away if you are not using it for healing or the greater good.” Sabrina S. Goeldlin
The following is my own inspiration of how to use this violet light explosion, exactly as received during one of my inspirational moments, and available for you to repeat to make a difference for yourself, your family, neighbours, pets and our mother earth and father sky.
Love and Light on your path.
The violet light explosions:
Creating the holy trinity
At the end, we give thanks to our divine selves for the amazing experiences we allow ourselves to have. And we give thanks and feel gratitude for our mother earth and father sky, for all they have given us to have this earthly experience as a conscious being. We give thanks to all who assist us on our journey, our guides, angels, god, the infinite, our family, pets… whatever it is that comes to you in this moment, allow it to take shape in its own form.
If you can in any way, do light explosions and loving intent healing work while standing in or close to a large body of water. Dr Emoto wrote books about how to program water for health and wellbeing, just as he says, when we do healing work or affirmations, being in or close to large bodies of water will give an extra kick to your work.
Another tip; if you have trouble following the steps, you can also record the steps on your phones recorder slowly and replay it the first few times.
I hope you enjoy this meditation and learn to do it to help assist us on this journey
Sabrina S. Goeldlin
Usui Reiki Master, Angelic Medium, Med Lab Sc, Author
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Here is an example of how working on the spiritual can become apparent in the physical, as I was writing my blog, my keyboard was turning violet. I took a screen shot. Even if someone came up with a logical explanation, it is still fantastic how this happened now as we work with this colour and create the violet light explosions, and as I was typing and my energy went into the keyboard in creating this blog post. Trust in the magic of divine unfoldment.
With the arrival of the law of attraction and the big craze about “the secret” many years ago, people have been trying to manifest what they desire following a system or a pattern and working on changing their vibes and thoughts to attract better things or situations.
Some of it worked out and some of it did not as intended or took a different path then anticipated.
It is possible to attract what you want even if you make seemingly far fetched statements of your wishes like a certain type of person with a specific eye color and personal qualities to come into your life, some may have even won the lottery with the law of attraction.
The questions you should always ask yourself before attempting to purposely manifest are;
- Where is it coming from?
- What is your true intent?
- Is it aligned with your true self?
- Is it an egocentric statement or a heart wish?
- And is it something that will allow you to create something more that gives back and has purpose?
As much as the law of attraction has evolved the old ways of manipulating reality to a place of understanding that your vibe attracts your tribe, your energy creates your reality and so on, the vital information learned here is that in order to attract anything, you need to change something about yourself to align yourself with what you really want. And so it will suddenly appear into reality through frequency alignment. The only problem with that is that essentially, you haven’t created anything. It will appear but as fast as it came it may be gone, because by itself, it is not sustainable.
But that is not everything there is to it, nothing happens if you lack focus and intent, nothing truly valuable and sustainable appears until you get clear on your true passion and your reason for why you are doing it or wanting it.
The next evolution of manifesting has nothing to do with doing anything at all, it only asks you to align yourself with your true self; the infinite or the higher expression of you.
This is only possible once you have emerged from deep self exploration and you have realized your true passion and purposes. Once you are fully aligned and integrated, you are also aligned with the infinite being of god, in this state of being, you no longer are creating through the ego but with infinite intent.
No matter how well intended, a wish or a desire can still be manipulative, the infinite does not manipulate, it allows, unfolds, grows and evolves. Just like we see in the flower of life symbol. The infinite does not worry about the steps or how it unfolds. It simply does it with purpose. All we have to do is plant the seed with passion and purpose, then watch it grow into a beautiful plant with our dedicated love and care during its evolvement.
This process manifests a beautiful self sustainable tree with a magnificent canopy that gives shelter to the inhabitants of earth.
Changing our focus can help us manifest greatness, instead of focusing on how things may unfold or what steps to take, focus on your true reason for doing it, the path of unfoldment will open as soon as you have a clear understanding of your passion and reason for doing something.
Have you ever noticed how we get lost in transactions because we lost sight of the true reason we originally went on this journey for? That we start off with something that really pulls on our heart strings but we end up taking on a multitude of other things, ways and modalities... it’s because our focus point changed.
It’s like going to the store but you forgot your list and return with a bunch of useful items but forgot the one important thing you originally meant to pick up.
Don’t get me wrong, it all is essential on the journey and nothing was done in vain. But this is YOUR reality and as such you are the creator there of, so don’t let others run your show for you and don’t distract yourself for too long. Everything you learn is valuable, but remember your true reason for being.
- Remember who you are and what drives your passion
- Be clear with yourself, recenter your passion and align yourself with your deepest purpose
- Focus but stay open to divine inspiration
Your why is not found in your ego mind but in your true hearts passion. Not your feelings but in your convictions, not in your beliefs but in your authentic experiences.
Look deep and write it all out so your mind gets a chance to connect with your true heart and understand what it is you are passionate about and why.
From there, all will unfold with clarity and in divine timing.
Take the fear out of the unknown, and put the trust in your unfathomable divine path.
🌺Picture courtesy of Wissam Dagher
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I was hiding from myself and the world inside a dream state. I was waiting for something to wake me up.
I was bored and had lost my passion for life.
Being comfortable does not always allow for growth.
Why make changes if you have everything you need?
I asked my father during one of his visits; “I once walked away from home and you picked me up on a playground where I sat on top of this pyramid shaped climber, I didn’t recognize you, so I pushed you away.”
My father lifted an eyebrow; “You can remember that? You were not even three years old then.”
I said yes of course; “I remember a lot of things from my early childhood.”
My father looked concerned; “You shouldn’t go dig in your past, that is not good for you.”
I glanced over to where he was sitting on my couch; “Why is that?”
He answered slowly; “Because we should always leave the past in the past and focus on the present.”
After twenty years of living in a dream state, my twin flame finally woke me up.
The story of twin flames:
A twin flame is the other half of our soul. When a soul is born, we split from our mother soul, each following their own path. We will look for a reunion with our twin over eons of time, solely to spark us into awakening and to help us remember who we really are.
Many artists start creating incredible works of art after their reunion with a twin flame. It is not always talked about, but those connections are significant and they are destined to happen. It will find you, even if you are hiding in the farthest corner of the world.
It is nothing what people believe it is. This connection will change your life forever.
And so, it happened to me; my twin flame found me. It was an instant recognition, a comfortable feeling of knowing this person. I saw in my twin something about me that I couldn’t grasp, and he felt the same way about me. Our dreams melded together, our senses were one, time began to blend and we both had psychic experiences. But twin flames mirror each other, they show each other what is missing, what is not aligned and what needs to change.
Twin flames are our greatest teachers.
Once a twin starts to awaken, the other one will pull away with a sense that the connection has run its course. This causes a huge upheaval, especially in the female part, the sleeping divine feminine, which may not always be a woman. The separation causes a huge void one falls into. And there is no one there to catch you. You just fall into a deep bottomless pit. It feels like all your energy was taken, and now you have a deep gaping hole left inside your heart.
The twin flame connection opens up the opportunity to re establish a relationship with yourself, to dig deep and find your true self, to understand who you are and why you are how you are. It’s a chance to really get to know yourself, maybe for the first time ever in your life.
Often, people look for the wrong things to fill their void inside their hearts. Instead of working on themselves, they drown themselves with outside distractions like drugs, alcohol, smoking, adrenalin rushes, sex or work. After this twin flame connection comes a time of deep inner reflection. It is vital for you in this situation to take care of yourself and to fill your void not with addictions but with compassion, self love and true care. Learning to respect yourself and having compassion for what you went through is very important.
You may also get back repressed memories during or after the twin flame connection because your subconscious is going to look for your truth, the human mind always needs to make sense of the seemingly senseless. This allows you to go look deeper for the missing and forgotten pieces of your mind. It is a key to open the dream box, so don’t be surprised about what you will find there.
The twin flame connection cracks the lid open to that box of unresolved stuff you had put away long ago, things you were unable to deal with. It now bubbles slowly to the surface where it needs to be resolved.
Why? Because, you are going to build a new life. But building cannot be done on a shaky foundation. You need to look deep, talk to your soul and dig out all the dusty memories and wipe the cobwebs off them so you can clearly see what you have been hiding from yourself all this time. Each piece you resolve for yourself, allows you to build a step on a solid foundation.
One piece at a time, we uncover our true story and learn that we need to be aware of what is going on in our life’s.
We learn to get back our voices and reinstate our personal power.
Instead of building a relationship with a person you thought you need to be with, you are working on the relationship you have with yourself. This will also allow you to connect with your partner of destiny one day, once you are balanced and reintegrated and in full expression of your true self.
This is true love.
Love is not an emotion, but it is a state of being.
“Like a butterfly coming out of a cocoon, you are awakening to your true nature and your purposes in life.”
*when perceptions are missing, it leads to cataclysms, basically you get the sledge hammer on your head. Gaining the missing perceptions allows for time to extend and the cataclysm may be avoided if it’s aligned with infinite intent.
Find the healer within and heal your own life.
Sabrina Goeldlin - Angelic Medium IAAP, Usui Reiki Master, Awakening Coach, MLT, Survivor, Mother, Writer and Author
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It’s been 11 years since I began my Reiki Journey after my dear god father passed away due to lung cancer.
It drove me into looking for ways to assist others going through difficult times.
Healing with hands became an interest when I was only a child; my cousin came for a visit and had stomach aches because she got home sick, I put lotion on her belly and put my hands on it sending it light so the pain goes away. I was about 7 years old.
Back in March I had a first request from a woman I met at LifeCon to teach her Reiki.
I’ve been working intensely on personal self development for a few years and have come to a place by now where I feel comfortable being an Empath Master.
Finishing my reiki journey with the Master course feels like the right thing to do at this Time. And also acts as a beautiful synchronicity with my development I’ve been working on.
I’m very happy and feel blessed to be able to experience all I have the past couple years.
It’s been an incredible journey, and there is much more to follow...
(Picture from 2017)
Some amazing revelations arrived today on the day in timelessness... 🌟
“Emotional over reactions stem from triggers we experience, many don’t know their triggers.”
You can learn it by observing yourself and quiet your mind down enough to hear your soul speak to you. The trigger often gets diagnosed as an illness, once you quiet the rough surface of the sea of your emotions, you can begin to see more clearly through the waters down to the bottom of the sea.
There you look for the most treasured item; the black pearl. The treasure inside your shadow self that lays below many layers accumulated over the past decades. Here lays the treasure of the true causes of all your problems surfacing in your life.”
“The pearl is your true self, black symbolizes your shadow self, the parts of you which your concsious mind had rejected.”
“Today the sky is light blue, not one cloud present.”
Sky blue colour removes the ability of others emotions to influence us. Aligning with this colour will help you realize what is your true self and what is assimilated from others through empathic blending, following Almines time map.
It helps you to not be influenced by it and clearly understand the difference between your own and others thoughts and feelings. It helps you to understand what is truly happening below the surfaces of thought and emotion.
Being a master of thought and emotion has zero to do with control. Control is an opposition that creates war and chatter, it disturbs the surface of the sea.
Instead; let it flow, allow, embrace, observe and understand.
Be in the flow of life. 🌊
Nothing can hurt you - you may use emerald colour to align yourself to help increase your power, open your heart and know you are always safe.
Sky blue is the colour of the Empath Master, and also the colour theme chosen for our book. Synchronicity at work here ;-)
Draw in sky blue light and align with it to understand “Your Truth” and live it, embracing who you are fully and wholesomely.
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10 most common ways angels communicate with us
It depends on your level of awareness and in what state you are in.
But most people notice the following:
1. Coins and feathers as a sign of support
2. Repeating number sequences as a way to pass on a timely message, google meaning of angel numbers
3. Feelings of being gently touched which can also be a spirit
4. A sense of warmth and comfort coming over you that may make you dissociate or feel almost faint, feeling numb, unable to move limbs or reduced movement but no fret conceived, you may also suddenly feel very tired but blissful
5. Tingling all over your body from the excitement of the presence of the angel
6. A person (or animal) appears and disappears at a perfect moment when you needed help, this is an angel that temporarily took over a human body
7. Clear sentences from a gentle warm voice inside your head guiding you, often feels like it’s approaching from the left side, the words are positive and encouraging and the voice is easy to understand, calm, low and mature sounding
8. A sense of being guided or led to a place where you find or realize something important
9. Angels generally use your extended senses to contact you unless they are off then they take physical shapes on or leave physical pieces behind or try to get your attention through songs or tv shows, something jumps out at you or seems to be a personal message to you
10. Clairvoyantly seeing an angels presence or seeing symbols in the air representing something you are dealing with or guidance for a next step to consider
Empowering Angel Messages
I wrote a chapter for the upcoming book being published in May 2019, I am writing about the importance of knowing who you are underneath all the layers of our human existence, where your true authentic story lays hidden from the conscious mind.
“My wisdom and understanding of this journey comes from my own experiences with spirit, angels and my path as a survivor of complex childhood trauma. I had no idea I was a survivor until I woke up to resurfacing memories during a life change, which had been repressed for decades.”
Living your truth is about knowing yourself to the core and applying your authenticity, as you are fulfilling your true life’s purposes. It is about reconnecting yourself to spirit to find your path and walk it with trust and confidence in yourself.
I am also giving first steps towards raising your own awareness so you can uncover what your truth is, piece by piece, and learn to live in it with love and appreciation of life.
“The most important part to live your truth is to re-establish your personal relationship with your true self. The one that you had abandoned and buried under layers and layers of pretend stories from the past. Your story is not what other people tell you it is, your story is the one that you truly lived and the one that puts meaning into your life.”
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The Field of One now turning into the Field of Eternal Flow - A channeled post from one Year ago from “The Intuitive Path” explaining the entrance into the field of one
I posted this channeled message a year ago in “The Intuitive Path” it explains entering the field of one which we have now entered in the grand scheme of things;
A thought, after a meditation that guided me purposefully into the space of the black moonlit lake, the spaceless space, from where we re-create our reality, turning painful experiences into divine unfoldment:
Truly it is so, as we move into the vast space of our outer but inner existence and move back into time to finely guide and orchestrate our life stories. Careful not to interrupt the time space continuum but to observe and reassure the traveller.
As we are maturing and developing into our true selves, knowing and remembering who we are, our ability to co create this life and our planets history is becoming more and more obvious, our power grows and so does our responsibilities.
As we move out of the cycle of repetitive stories, orchestrated by the human mind, we step forward into the light with one step only. Fully living in white light reality and standing in our power, the column of white light connecting our divine heritage and letting us walk in light where ever we go, whatever we do or think or feel.
Now truly all is sacred, forever.
(Picture taken in Belfountain in Erin Ontario) response of the universe to the message received on this day.
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In May of 2018, the opportunity to travel to Peru presented itself. I had a vision a year sooner about traveling to Peru with people on a spiritual journey. My friend and member of my light family had offered to get together a group to travel to Peru, a journey she had made before. The purpose of this journey was to reconnect to the heart of the earth. The kundalini of our mother earth had moved, we all have heard of the earth quakes in central America and the volcanic eruptions along the equator over the past year. The kundalini of the earth travelled from the Himalayans towards the Andean mountain range, where it rested in Peru. It was time for us to make this spiritual journey into the heart of the earth.
I was debating the costs and how I could cover this. My mind was interfering with what my heart had already decided upon. I asked spirit about this, what would be the right decision to make? Go on this spiritual pilgrimage, a once in a life time adventure that could nurture me and bring me wisdom to carry home to Canada, or not to go. I had broken my leg on the ice at the beginning of this year and missed six weeks of work, I had felt down and beaten at this point and money was an issue. A sense of joy came over me thinking of this pilgrimage. The minute I made up my mind and gave the go ahead with booking, I felt relieve and bliss coming over me, I was dancing in circles and feeling like I just took a big step out of misery into the light of a new promising world. I knew I made the right choice.
I am clairvoyant, so the minute I make up my mind about something, I start seeing the future unfolding in front of my eyes, visions of the trip, people, the smells, the experience, feelings... I was brimming with premonitions. It was exhilarating. But just weeks later I was hit with a huge tax bill which put a damper on my experience. I had lost my child support and government support. So, I had to rely on my hourly pay from work, paying back debt and still trying to survive while paying a mortgage, bills and kids responsibilities. At this point, I could have caved in, cancelled the trip and just not gone. But I didn’t cave in. I knew this trip was a spiritual and emotional life saver for me and that I would bring myself back fully refreshed and energized to take on the things I had in my heart.
The trip was epic from beginning to end. I was in my element and the people I was with all were on their own spiritual journeys, we connected so well. I shared my room with another survivor and we were able to share some of our experiences and resonated on many levels. The synchronisations on this trip were amazing and made me realize how significant it was that I decided to be part of this.
When we arrived in Cusco at 3399 metres above sea level, I noticed immediately how thin the air was, I felt I was walking on a cloud, but my breath didn’t give me the oxygen I needed. Right when you exit the airplane, at the end of the corridor, there is a tourist booth that offers coca leaves. Raw dried leaves were sitting there in a container, I took three to assist me with the altitude. The body needs time to adjust to the sudden difference. I didn’t feel bad the first day but felt it more on the second and third days. After that initial air shock, my body was adjusting to it. What I was most amazed at was the incredible selection of fruits and foods I have never seen before in my life. For example, Jurimoya, which looks like a prehistoric fruit with a snake skin and tastes like a mix of lychee and maybe pineapple. Very sweet and apparently beneficial to decrease the risk of parasite infections, I decided to eat it every time it was available for that purpose alone. Cusco is a very friendly place, it feels welcoming and warm.
On the first days we stayed at a beautiful hostel, it had gardens with plants I didn’t recognize and more cobble stone pathways. One of my traveling friends brought healing disks with him called “systems optimizer devices”, developed by a doctor Cungi, the disks are capable of restoring balance to your system, restoring a sense of physical, mental, emotional and spiritual well being. As I was laying down with the disks on our first night, my roommate took a video and caught many orbs flying and circling me during the session. (See the video below) True orbs are spirits or angels, they show an energetic presence in the room.
Just before I came to Peru, I had received a letter from a relative, which I hadn’t opened but brought with me, because I was anxious about opening it and reading it alone. This anxiety was felt throughout the last days and I had asked divine mother about the letter and when to read it. Before I put on the disks, I asked in meditation if I should read it before or after the healing. But mother came to me in the shape of a beautiful black woman, she took my hands and looked me in the eyes, she said “Don’t worry about this letter, child, you will feel when its time to open it. The letter serves as a distraction, nothing else.” So, I left the letter for another time. In fact, I would almost forget I even brought it until a couple days later.
We stayed three nights at Ubuntu Ayni, in the sacred valley which sits lower than Cusco at around 2200 metres, it is a sacred, safe and supportive healing space. San Pedro or Wachuma, the teacher plant, is a cactus that has been used as a sacred plant medicine for at least 3000 years in the Andes of Peru. It is a medicine that can be used to help perceive our self created barriers and limitations, it greatly aids in opening and connecting with our hearts. Each ceremony is like a reunion with yourself, mother nature and the divine. Here I remembered the letter I brought with me and I felt this was the perfect time to open it and read it. I opened the letter expecting an out lashing of harsh words. But instead, I found it wasn’t a personal letter at all. It was simply an invitation to a family gathering. I realized that my anxiety was a creation of my own mind. I was waiting or even hoping for a response after I had outed someone in my family for abusing me as a child. The fear of being attacked had debilitated me most of my life, so I had never wanted to deal with the issues until just two years ago when I was triggered into remembering the abuse as a child. I wanted nothing to do with it but now had been faced with the reality of this. It was a chance to connect with my true self and find my authentic voice, which had been taken from me for up to thirty-six years. If you have experienced flashbacks from childhood abuse decades after the actual abuse, you know exactly what I am talking about. And if you don’t, this may be very difficult for you to comprehend.
I was faced with the realization that this person was in complete denial over the past and had chosen to ignore me and act like everything is normal. I knew that there is nothing more I could expect form him. But I also knew that I had to keep going on my own path. My path no longer was depending on another person’s acceptance. I felt relieve and a bit silly. I worked myself up before the trip over nothing. Now that I had put this behind me, I felt ready to take on the journey the sacred plant medicine would provide.
I must say, I was a bit afraid to do this. I am not a fan of any type of substance that changes my perception, but I knew this was different. During the preparations, I asked my spirit guides to appear and help me with the ceremony, I needed their guidance to feel supported and safe.
The cup was moved around, and everyone drank the green cactus slush, some got sick from the strong taste and emptied their stomach contents in a nearby flower bed. I drank less than half because I didn’t want to get sick. After about two hours I realized I didn’t drink enough to feel the full effects for the healing to be effective and so I was offered another cup.
As I sat there, my spirit guide Pam appeared at my side, bare feet and with a headband, looking like a hippie. She smiled and said; “I am here to guide you”. She let me know when to drink from the cup and told me to stop and take a few seconds before taking another sip. It took a bit longer, but she let me know that she wants me to drink the whole cup without purging the contents. She was right, nothing came back out of me and my experience was intense.
I was curious about the effects of this plant on a person who’s clairvoyant and so I expected to see interesting things. But what I saw was weigh beyond just interesting. After about an hour, my perception of reality expanded exponentially, the mountain looked like it got turned inside out and there was sacred geometry like the flower of life everywhere I looked. Within the walls of my room, the flowers outside, even the clouds moved in harmony within the geometrical shapes as I laid in the grass gazing up to the sky. Everything was flowing and moving. When I closed my eyes, I saw Inka symbology, beautifully coloured snakes and Inka masks, then it moved back to sacred geometry. An intricate system of flowing beautiful shapes and forms. My mind would wander and access barriers I had put on myself. I was in communication with myself and started to see the faults I had and the issues I have tried to avoid. My emotions were flowing freely and bubbled up to be expressed. After digging deep into the subconscious mind for hours, the condor lifted me up into the upper worlds. Here I was shown that I am a part of creation, that the divine mother resides within me and so anything I do is already a sacred act. I learned acceptance of myself for who I was on this fantastic journey of self-discovery and awakening to higher consciousness. I realized the beauty of everything in nature, how all is connected at a deeper level and how everything is there for a reason, there are no accidents, and all was planted and seeded with purpose and deep love and understanding from our mother earth and our father sky. I am a manifestation of them, a channel for their energies, to continue the work our divine parents started, as a guardian of earth, a divine gardener and daughter of Gaia.
It is our right to know who we are and to understand the power we have. Our divine parents want us to stand fully in our own power, guided by our hearts and intuitions. Our hearts are a direct link to the divine creation of life, and everything we create through our hearts, will be a perfect manifestation of divine will.
To be continued....
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