Letting Go Of Victimhood

I received back a memory with a realization this morning, when I looked in the mirror getting ready for my day, that, how I had been showing up for myself and others had been tainted energetically and emotionally by my feelings and my need to be heard and validated. Not being heard as a child when I tried to tell people what’s been happening to me and not having my experiences validated by adults in my life, led to needing some savior to come and rescue me from my situation.
I carried this baggage with me all my life and subsequently was attracting relationships with people who were immature and liked to be looked at as the heroes, which stemmed from their own childhood experiences where they were living in the shadow of a sibling the family saw as the proverbial “golden child” and lacked healthy attention and praise from their parents.
This energy of needing to be heard and validated came through and was easily picked out by others, who felt repulsed by it if they were adults in their full adult power. A true adult would never be in relation with an adult child, full of neediness and seeking attention. This prevented me for a long time from having an adult relationship.
Validating myself and hearing my self talk about my experiences, finally gave me a sense of being understood, respected and loved. This new feeling changed how I was showing up for myself and others.
But also, for it to truly solidify in my energy, I had to connect with my subconscious, I had to pinpoint the origin of my feelings; a memory from my childhood experiences, and then realize that this was no longer me, then replace my old feelings with a new feeling that now would serve me better as an adult.
I am letting go of victimhood and am embracing my full power as the adult I was always meant to be...  to fully live the life I was always meant to live...