“I don’t have any hidden trauma, if something like that happened to me, I would know about it.” That used to be my response when anyone asked me if I knew anything about trauma or abuse in my younger years. It is a common response of people who cannot recall their trauma. Many are quite shocked to realize that there is such a thing as repressed memories, and so was I when I recovered them during a divorce. This is not at all uncommon. Memories of trauma often get triggered when we go through life changes or we go through an immense amount of stress. Often not talked about but particularly important to address during these times when so many people are being traumatized with current circumstances. Remembering my childhood trauma changed my perception of reality and I realized I could not trust some key people in my life. This realisation at first was like a bomb dropping on me and destroying my identity, an important process that helped me to remember who I was.
“Traumatic experiences often are shunned and hidden, but when they bubble up, we get a chance to recollect the memories and aspects of ourselves we had pushed away out of shame and guilt. The process of reintegrating the hidden self allows us to feel whole again over time. Remembering allows us to dive deep into our subconscious to recover insights we had previously no access to. We gain perspectives of the human psyche and our consciousness, bringing with it a wealth of inspiration and understanding. We gain light and wisdom through diving deeply into our shadow self and when we re-emerge, we have become empowered and fully activated multi dimensional beings.”
I did not know I had hidden trauma. I also did not know I had abilities one would call a gift. I shut it off when I felt it was not safe to be me. In hindsight, I should have known. There were many instances when people said things to me and pointed out the obvious, but I did not see it at all. I kept rejecting the obvious signs. These are the hidden signs of trauma based on my own personal observations of my life path. When we experienced long term repeated trauma as children, we learn to live in fear mode, meaning that our hormone system is in a constant triggered state or easily gets triggered, meaning that we have difficulties to relax and often look for ways to cope which may also lead to substance abuse.
Signs you may carry hidden trauma:
Read this article on the elephant journal
Sabrina Goeldlin /Usui Reiki Master/Angelic Medium/Essential Oil Advocate & Specialist/Writer and Blogger/ http://www.theangelhouse.ca