After my partner made a beautiful raw vegan dinner, I sat by the Christmas tree and suddenly remembered a moment few years ago sitting here by myself.
And how I couldn’t relax because I felt I had to move and do things to make sure I had enough money to support myself.
In that moment I had a message come in that I didn’t need to do anything at all, but my mind interfered saying “but” you have bills to pay.
This night, I realized the amazing things I have experienced and learned since then and how I am currently in a great place.
Eating amazing food and having great conversations with my partner; I realized how negative thinking creates a reality that causes anxiety and destroys the life we want to build.
Surrendering and accepting the moment and what we have built, being grateful for what we have and are able to do and experience. That is a foundation we can build more upon.
A course I am taking right now, is showing me to increase my abundance container from where I am at right now and not run around looking for ways to increase my abundance but to let it come to me, the bigger the container the bigger the abundance; expanding the container and allowing it to fill. Abundance is a state of being, that takes many shapes and forms.
“I am seeing a large cauldron with outwards beveled edges, it holds the whole world in it. I see myself first at the edge sitting on the rim. Then I see a rose growing, unfolding and expanding its petals in the middle of the cauldron. Suddenly, I am the rose, and the cauldron expands to hold the universe.”
I see that the more abundant I am, the more I can show up for others and the more can I contribute to making our world a better place.
To be abundant, one needs to be like the rose emitting the beautiful scent after unfolding and expanding its petals. The rose smells even before the petals are open which means that you don’t need to wait for conditions to be perfect to do the things you are passionate about, you can do it anytime.
The rose is also a symbol of frequencies; scents and frequencies like sound and vibrations have huge power and effects on us, they are subtle but powerful beyond ones comprehension.
Another realization came tonight and that’s the one of conflict. Conflict is a huge abundance block. Releasing and letting go of anything that creates inner or outer conflict is essential in creating the life you love.
For example, the conflict created by trying to get something you feel entitled to. Or the conflict created by not speaking your truth or explaining to someone what you need. This creates both inner and outer conflicts. It clutters your mind with worries and anxiety, anger and upset. And it will expand into your environment by creating conflict with people, worsening relationships instead of fostering them.
Letting go and surrendering can feel like “giving in” or “giving up” or “loosing out” to the ego or little me and so it may need some time for one to release this opposition that causes inner conflict.
You are not “loosing”, that’s a false perception. You are actually gaining. You are gaining inner peace, confidence and trust in oneself and the infinite. When you clear your slates, and all is resolved, the storm calmed and the sea is peaceful; you can finally get ready to build something new, conditioning keeps one in place, stuck and suffocating.
If you believe that you can only do something, go somewhere or receive “if” or “when” a certain situation comes to pass, you create time and delay the very thing you’d like to happen. In some cases, the delay helps to receive perceptions one otherwise would have missed out on but on the other hand, it delays your life. This points towards the importance of daily self work to stop putting your best life on hold.
Letting go of the conditioned self allows for new inspirations of the heart to move into clear view. Now it is visible, palpable and exciting.
The voice is a powerful manifestation tool, learning how to master it is incredibly important. Your reality changes depending on how it is applied.
Realizing how thoughts and speech affects us, others and our situations.
Also realizing the importance of intent. In the field of intent we can create magic.
What we intent in the field of possibilities will become real and visible in the physical realities. This is true white magic, aligning oneself with the infinite possibilities and surrendering to our higher selves guidance.
We already created this, little me just can’t remember that.
Remember who you really are and allow that knowledge to settle deeply into your solar plexus;
I am my “I am presence”; I am abundance.
Sabrina S Goeldlin - Usui Reiki Master & Angelic Medium